How to pray. Suggestions welcomed.

[SheepToTheFleecing]

- I have heard that it is good to pray on behalf of people against whom I feel malice. While I do not know most of their names or faces, I assume I will be praying for many many people. I will pray that they find piece in their hearts and that they have good health. I will pray that they have occupations that they enjoy and that their loved ones are a joy and not a burden to them. I will ask that they be granted the desires of their hearts and that they live out their days in peace.
- As much as I would like to not think about this specific part of it... the prayers will be more meaningful if I can identify, in my own mind, as closely as possible who it is that I am praying for. The "Admissions Representative" that told me untruths; that one teacher who was a bitter asshole and who refused to teach on some days and on others thought he was teaching but was just making himself feel important; that one really good teacher who actually lent some credibility to the school even though he knew it didn't deserve it (that is the one who left the answers just laying around to be stolen and disseminated to all of his students); the registrar who told me to stick it out and get my degree just like he did when he was younger; the dean who enrolled me in classes even though I told him that I was "taking a quarter off"; the several teachers who spent the entire class just screwing around and barely ever did anything like teaching; the Career Services people who fudged their numbers and smiled in my face and told me lies; the teachers who told us exactly what would be on the test but nothing else.
- I hope all of this prayer helps me. I don't have any problem looking in the mirror or sleeping at night (I take a pill to help me sleep) but just knowing that they are still doing this to naive Americans fills me with impotent rage. (Impotent rage is bad for the soul and for the stomach lining and lower back. (I still love God and country. It is just hard sometimes.)

[doniker]

Even though ITT totally ripped me off and even though I still owe $27,000 for the 9 months I wasted there, I am not upset or pissed of anymore.

Being upset and angry will get me nowhere but physically and mentally sick.

I have accepted the fact that I will be making a payment of $250 a month, every month, for the next 10 years and their is nothing I can do but pay it.

I only take home about $1675 a month working a full time job, so $250 a month is a big dent in my budget. But hey, I got fucked and hopefully all the people that fucked me will eventually get theirs.

[SheepToTheFleecing]

What about the fact that there is a system in place that is still fucking people the same way that you were fucked? What is being done is illegal and immoral on so many levels. Worse yet, they are posing as a legitimate educational institution and working under the auspices of a well intentioned student loan provider. We are allowing this scam to be passed on to another generation of could-be college students. i AM BEGINNING TO THINK THAT ALL OF THE PROGRAMS OFFERED ARE NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS MINE WAS. Exactly what is it that makes you think you were fucked doniker? I completely lost perspective insofar as being mentally fit and am trying to regain it, but I am sure that my "classes" were not real classes. I am not sure why they pretended that there was a real curriculum at all. Maybe the curriculum is assigned by the "headquarters," as mandated by logic and ethics, and they are oblivious to the fact that none of it was covered in a meaningful way in nearly all of my classes. I had one teacher in particular that was very bad and he had been teaching there for years. I also had another teacher that never said one thing that I understood, though I only had him for one class and he only lectured twice and he was really easy going as far as... well as far as everything really, which was really cool of him considering he didn't seem to like me at all. You are an inspiration doniker. I will try to go through my day without thinking of my bum education and of the fact that I am only one of many and that these motherfuckers are still doing the same thing to... I don't know if I can do it man. I mean God is good and all and there but for the grace of God go I... but this system is ruining lives. They promise an education and job training and placement and then give nothing but empty words and more empty promises. Why is there not a movement of some kind? We need a "heavy" to start breaking balls and end the corruption and greed. They are breaking laws and ruining lives and law enforcement officials just don't give a goddamn. Whatever. I'm just gonna keep praying until I have regained enough perspective to start thinking rationally. YOU HEAR THAT YOU MOTHERFUCKERS?!?

[doniker]

I have done everything I know possible to get justice.

I have talked to lawyers.

I have wrote letters to the BBB, my congressman, the state board of schools, the attorney general and the corporate office of ITT.

All of the above have basically told me that they can't or won't help me and/or ITT has done nothing wrong.

I am positive that these "for profit" schools pay off goverment officials to look the other way.

After nearly 2 years I am exhausted and don't have the energy or money to fight these fuckers anymore....I am a 45 year old man who has given up the dream that I will ever be anything so I will just live my life, work my low paying job, pay my debts and then die broke.

[SheepToTheFleecing]

So I just watched "One Guy One Cup." I really wished that I hadn't, but now that I am over the initial bad feeling I may think of the guy in the video and not feel so sorry for myself. Still kind of in shock... maybe don't watch it. I may never be the same again. I... I couldn't look away.

[sevenalive]

Well i haven't seen you in awhile

[SheepToTheFleecing]

I wanted to try and gain some perspective. It still hasn't happened so I will have to stop thinking about that place again for a while. It is hard to believe I was ever so naive. Meh.